i should….
go to sleep. ugh. i realllly just dont want to face tomorrow, and i fucking hope to god, that my mom wont call my college counsler and then find out, the big lies i made up. :P
if that happens, coming home, like my home would …like WORLD WAR 3!!! that’s how insane mad, crazy, she’s gonna be with my twin and i.
i don’t want tomorrow to come, but its already here. its 2 45 am. in my chicano class, i will be sitting in my desk, and while the teacher talks, all i could think of is, hoping my mom didn’t find out of my lies of college. :P becuz i don’t want to come home. i would want to camp at my college :P FEAR OF GOING HOME. momster. ugh
A part of me feels realllly scared, and then a part of me is just, kinda numbish? cuz i reallly told my parents the truth about how i feel of college, soo reallly me not passing my classes, it shouldnt be a suprise to them. im just wowed that my mom actually thinks, after she yells at me and calls me names, like she reallly thinks, im gonna start caring for college?! NOOOOO!!! I MADE UP MY MIND! i did a loot of thinking, and researched online of artists and diplomas and stuff like that. Lots of ppl made it through life wihtout a dergree.
Life is a business. If u know business, u can survive life. :P Even marriage can be a business for others :P
well i reallly have to go to sleep. i wish my cell had tumblr, so i can finish my thoughts.
i think i should pray for myself for later today. -.-
