oh yay… -.-
my annoying fuckin parents are argueing again! >.<
tomorrow is gonna be EVEN MORE HELL! Once my ma finds out i didnt pass my classes, and i lied that i did. -.-
wellll i told her 8 times since summer 08 till last yr in HER FACE I DONT WANNA DO COLLEGE ANYMORE!!! i gave her my reasons, i even made some pretty damn good points of how artists don’t need a FUCKIN DIPLOMA TO MAKE IT IN LIFE! THEY JUST NEED TO BE DAMN GOOD IF NOT, BE THE DAMN BEST THEY CAN BE WITH THEIR ART WORKS!!! no non-artist person GETS THAT!!! CEPT MY GODFATHER…CUZ HE HAS A BRAIN, AND IS AN UNDERSTANDING MAN, AND HE FUCKIN LISTENS TO WHAT I WANT!!! UNLIKE MY FUCKIN PARENTS!!!! they just say NOOO! UR GONNA FINISH COLLEGE AND THAT’S THAT! and im crying my heart out to my mom, saying i dont like it, i hate it, and i just wanna take the art classes and focus ON WHAT I LOOOVE!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THAT?!!! i know what i wanna do with my life. iI want to start transferring my fashion illustration ideas on t-shirts/ loose tank tops and sell them! I already have ppl saying they would buy my stuff. and then i want to learn to sew, which im currently learning, AND CAN’T WAIIIIT TO USE AND CUT AND SEW AND MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF THE NEW FABRICS I BOUGHT COUPLE WEEKENDS AGO. :P and my twin and i would love to take a jewelery class together to learn to make out own designs, and sell! my twin and i are very creative ppl, we ALWAYS BOUNCE IDEAS OFF EACH OTHER!! SOO MUCH FUN!! I AM THE HAPPIEST WHEN IM DOING WHAT I LOVE…WHY TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME?!! WHYYY?!
ppl who NEED DIPLOMAS ARE PPL WHO ARE GOING TO WORK FOR OTHERS!!! AND FUCK THAT! MY TWIN AND I AREN’T GONNA BE SLAVES FOR OTHERS! we want our own lil business. :P And i got some advice from a guy online who had his own clothing line, and he told me to start getting into the fashion world, creating ur own t-shirts, is a GREAT WAY TO START! YEAH! I HAVE THAT DOWN! IM GETTING REALLY GOOD IDEAS FOR T-SHIRTS/LOOSE TANKS. PUTTING MY FASHION ILLUSTRATIONS ON THEM!! FASHION ART ON TEES!! young and fun! :D also, i wanna draw on tote bag canvases, like of lady gaga and again my illustrations, and sell them.
:/ *sigh* i know its a risk, BUT FUCK, IM READY!! AND I CANT WAIT! I LIKE TO GET TO THE FUCKING POINT! >.<!!! NO MORE WAITING AROUND!! FINITO!! :p
I DON’T WANNA FINISH COLLEGE, AND I DON’T WANT TO GO TO GAY CSUN!!!
Just take classes THAT I KNOW WILLL BENEFIT ME AND WHAT ILL BE DOING IN THE FUTURE!! FUCK U CSUN!!
i looove to learn what IM INTERESTED IN! i want to take alll of the art classes in my community college, CEPT…the nude life drawing class. yea i like drawing clothes….sooo ummm no thanx. :P I just think it’s great to learn all different types of art. Cuz i can take what i learned from a sculpture class, and add it on to fashion. I can take what i learned from graphic design and add it to drawings. IT ALL GOES HAND IN HAND!!! i wanna DO IT ALL DAMMIT! >.< UGH.
it realllly TRUELLLY SUX, LIVING WITH PARENTS WHO DON’T UNDERSTAND HOW I THINK, AND FEEL OF ART AND WHAT I WANNA DO WITH MY LIFE, AND HOW I SEE LIFE! Sometimes i feel like i was born in the wrong yr of time. I wish i was born the 50’s? just so i can experience the 60’s 70’s and 80’s. CUZ THAT’S WHEN THINGS WERE BEING DISCOVERED! THAT’S WHEN EVERYTHING WAS LIKE WOOOOOOW!!!! EVERYTHING WAS NEW! NEW GENRES OF MUSIC, NEW FASHION, NEW EVERYTHING! now everything’s JUST BOOOOOOORIIIIIIIIIIIING!!! i sometimes even get bored with fashion. -.- and like to look back at the oldies, and just wish i was at that time. -.-
i think i got off topic. :(
I just want to start a new life, and start it with honesty. -.-
living with my parents + going to college + not having close friends = me going insane to the point of emotional breakdown, to the point of maybe being bi-polar. :(
